Well i haven't been on in quite a while i just want to tell you all those who read this that life isn't as it seems ... lately i have had some trials and didn't know what to do . i learned from them . All the talks that my parents have given me didn't change me one bit. Its what i wanted to change myself. i didn't want to be stuck in the past of regret and sorrow. Ive changed and people notice and i want them to notice . I'm not a bad kid. If my family doesn't like me for who i am then it doesn't bother me . It should.. but i don't want to be in misery all my life pretending to be something I'm not. I know that I'm a crazy spazey girl and people love me for that. But my family doesn't understand that. I'm going to have a life that i can live upon and grow up without worrying what other people think about me . a couple days ago me and my dad were talking a i don't know how this came up but i said " so why does it matter what people think about me "? he said cause it shows who we are and are image and are reputation. i don't care what people think about me i care about what i think about myself if the world was based on there life by what people think about them then who are we? What are we ? who do make of ourselves . don't lie about who you really are. Just show the world that your you . I am a very prideful and independent girl and know that i don't need to pretend anything just keep moving forward and don't let anyone gudge you on what they think ... just what you think of yourself.